This week I’m switching it up and linking up with Delightfully Tacky for this week’s prompt, which is:

What is keeping you from achieving your dreams right now?

I’m going to be completely honest… right now, I’m not even sure what my dreams really are.  One week I’ll think I know for sure what it is I want to do with my life, and then the next week it might change. I’m not entirely sure where this indecisiveness comes from; I’ve always had a hard time making decisions.  Most likely it stems from fear, and the fear that I’ll choose poorly.  Then I wonder why do I fear making the wrong decision, and that makes me think I’m afraid of failure, which is somewhat true, but as to why that it is, I couldn’t tell you.

Granted, even if fear were not an issue or indecision, would I be able to make my dreams come true right now? That’s hard to say. Hard because money can be tight and time is often very hard to find. I need money for certain things to help along my dreams, but I also have two small children and work full-time, so I’m lucky if I have an hour or two in the evening that doesn’t need to be spent doing something else like cleaning or trying to do some form of exercise since I sit at a desk all day.  Those are probably the biggest obstacles in my path right now.

Actually, I take that back.  My biggest obstacle is me.  I can list excuse after excuse, but ultimately, what it comes down to is me.  I could change my lifestyle to try and make more time in my life, and we are currently trying to find ways to cut back on our spending, so if I really wanted to buckle down and make it happen… I probably could.  Would it be easy?  No, which is probably why I find reasons to stay where I am.  I’m cozy right here and there is stability.  I fear change and the unknown and usually I’m not big on taking risks either.  Granted, it might all be different if I wasn’t married and had two kids.  Life was so much cheaper before kids…

So, really I need a plan.  I need to decide what I want, and then make a plan as to how to get there, and just do it.  Sure, it might take some big life changes, but I have to do something.  The biggest thing is planning. I feel better about making changes if there is a plan involved and maybe even a flowchart and some excel spreadsheets in there.