I sometimes feel obligated to keep up this blog. It’s not as though I’m paid to keep this blog so I can quit at any time I feel like it, but then again, it is an easy way to keep a journal of the things I want to remember and it’s also been a great way to meet new people. Perhaps it’s just the time of year getting the best of me. I’m not depressed, but I feel restless in a way. Unsure of what I want to do with myself because there are too many things I want to do and simply not enough time. Then again, is there every truly enough time? I wonder if I would still feel there wasn’t enough time if I did somehow manage to get more. Most likely, yes. I’m at a point where a big part of me wants to take a step back and lay out the pieces of my life before me and take a tip from Marie Kondo, hold it up and ask if it truly brings me joy. Granted, what to do if I find too many things bring me joy? Ha! I suppose I shall then find a way to make time for it all. There’s always time for the things we really love, right? We just have to learn to make time and more importantly not waste the time we do have. I am absolutely guilty of wasting time, sometimes because I’m exhausted, but other times for no good reason at all.
So, that is what I shall do. I am going to remove all self-imposed obligations for the month of December and rediscover my joys and my “Why.” If it doesn’t bring me joy, it’s gone. If it does bring me joy then I’m going to make it a higher priority. Granted, I can’t exactly just stop doing the day to day things that don’t bring me joy, but I’m going to find ways to make it so they don’t take up as much time. I think decluttering and rearranging is a good place to start. So, if I’m gone for a while, you’ll know why, but I might stop in if I feel like it… and only if I really feel like it.