Tomorrow I turn 35. The end.
It’s not exactly a milestone year, but it has definitely been on my mind and as I get closer to 40 (!!!!) it makes me get a little existential and if I’m not careful can lead to a certain amount of anxiety. No one really wants to think about their mortality, do they? While I’m not on my deathbed by any means and I’m not having a mid-life crisis… exactly, I am certainly becoming more aware that my time on earth is finite and I have not reached my fullest potential and while I may not know what that is… the clock is ticking. How much more time do I spend just casually strolling through my life? I feel like I’m window shopping and I keep looking at all these amazing items in store windows and either lusting over them or telling myself that I can’t have them because of reason a, b or c. I am excellent at making excuses and hiding behind fear and quite frankly I feel like I’ve wasted a lot of time. Not all of it, of course! I’m just becoming more aware that I’ve spent a lot of time walking away from the edge rather than just leaping and putting faith in the universe/my abilities. So… 35 is going to be different. Lots of changes… I hope in store.
Okay, enough of that. Here is a picture of a lamp I bought recently.
Who knew a little table lamp would make such a big difference in our living room? I can even read on the couch at night again! Ha! Finally an impulse Target buy that was truly really worthwhile.
Have a wonderful weekend everyone!
Happy belated birthday 🙂 I totally hear you on the semi existential crisis once you hit the mid 30’s. It’s actually a common anxiety. I had no idea about that until my therapist told me a few years ago when I was dealing with a different type of existential crisis 🙂
Love the lamp! And I started reading Dark Matter, too! How do you like it? I stopped and started reading some other novels but I plan on going back to it in the future.